Spur of the moment

Been meaning to write for awhile now.

Things have remained busier than expected since school finished up last week. The whole idea of moving is somewhat stressful, although we're blessed to be able to stay with my parents until we figure something out. It's tough not being able to have a place to call your own, to not have a place to acknowledge as "home." I know that when we find a house to purchase it will be the right place and it will be something that we have earned and saved for which will make it all worth it. I know that whatever we end up with will be something that we can maintain and afford and be able to have margin in our life because when its all said and done- this baby means everything and I want Tina to be able to stay at home raising our children. I don't want to be so lost into attempting to afford something that we can't afford- Faith, and Family matter more than stuff and material gain and I'm not will to negate Faith and Family for anything.

Something strange has been happening to me. I've lost interest in many things that used to draw my interest and at first I thought that it was due to finances tightening up. Yet now I'm believing it to be something of a fast that I'm going through. My desire for buying "stuff" has literally dried up, and the things that I have I want to get rid of. I haven't gone to the comic store in 5 weeks (which is incredibly unusual for me... I would make special trips weekly to the comic book shop) I have adopted this desire to sell all my old toys, etc. I just feel like all "my stuff" is either a distraction or just not worth it. I'm just going through a change, and I can't really figure out what that change means yet.

I've also been doing quite a bit of praying lately (well especially since the news of the pregnancy) I have every fiber of who I am tied up into this pregnancy, every ounce of Faith and I appreciate all those around us who have also prayed for us and will continue to pray for us- thank you! My praying has been an ongoing, all day sort of conversation with God. I feel that we must always come to God anywhere and anyway we can so I seek to do that in store rooms, in my car, on the road and at home. I have begun praying for God to open doors and to slap other doors shut. This is usually in regards to ministry opportunities and the hope that I have in the possibility of a new job in the future. Please do not get me wrong- I'm so blessed to be working and to have insurance and all that comes with full time pay... yet I'm so eager to get my hands and feet dirty with ministry opportunities and to be working within my passion place. It is in my understanding that it may take a drastic move by God for me to finally "get it" regarding what it is and where it is that He would have me serve. In understanding this I sometimes become a little upset because I know that the adjustment could be quite difficult to handle. If God wants to make a point, He will and it doesn't always happen in ways that we can fully understand at first (or if ever)

I just know that I'm supposed to be doing something different with my life right now (regarding profession) and it's "the getting there" that is tiresome. The waiting is difficult to, because I truly believe that I'm being called to something and it has been more than once that I have experienced visions, or have had some sort of confirmation from others around me concerning future dealings that I'll be made a part of. My work has treated me well, and surely I have had my differences with things there- its just that I'm ready to move on, I'm ready to connect with who God would have me be- now that I've been initially equipped with schooling.

So enough of my rant... lol- I just felt that I needed to share some of the current happenings as of late.

There is a conference at the end of May that Tina and I have been invited to and I would really like to be able to go- hopefully there will be an opening at work where I will be allowed to take off some time. Tina has been going strong with the pregnancy- God is so Good, and he truly provides and connects with us in prayer. To know that our God is bigger than sin, sickness, disease, and death helps encourage Faith and pushes us to get closer to Him. I've been reading "the Divine Conspiracy"- this is a book that I bought a couple years back, after having read that it served as a catalyst for many of my favorite and most influential Pastors, theologians in their beginning stages of seeking God and a worldview structure to go along with their lives- I knew that I had to buy this book and read it cover to cover. I started to sometime ago and then got distracted probably from the 200 hundred other books I have had to read for school over the past 2 years. Well I just back into it and it is completely fleshing out my entire thought process, re-engaging me into the learning experience and helping me seek a more in depth view of God and the Word.

I wrote this earlier while at work in the last few minutes before my lunch break finished up...

"For Bible believing Christians we believe in the concept of truth. We believe that God and his Word is truth. So then we must also address those things outside of scripture that have been found to be true to also be from God. We must also then believe that Jesus meant everything He said, we do not have to move around what some may consider to be "iffy" issues nor do we have to use specialized language to "be more" clever. We can if we understand the context from which Jesus spoke from, if we understand the history, the systems of thought, of life and philosophy of those around Him- then we can better understand and therefore live by His words.

It is in understanding that Jesus' words are Gods words that we both become enchanted and overwhelmed. We must take in His words with respect to their complexity and yet also their simplicity. We must continue to learn, engage, pray and listen."

Go in Peace,
Lance