Odds and Ends

Taking a break from school work.

Today was the first day that Tina truly felt heavy pregnancy symptoms kicking in... what a blessing and yet for her I'm sure it's a love-hate type of thing. Of course its good to be reminded but can't the reminder not be so exhausting? lol

Work has been hectic, it's the week before Easter and people have been acting quite crazy. On top of this we are also going to stay busy through out the whole month of April due to some "visits" happening at work. Although I went on vacation in February, I may be needing another vacation by the end of this month. I would just like some time away...

I've been thinking a lot lately about this baby and who he or she is going to end up becoming. How awesome is it that I have a say on how an individual is going to turn out? I'm going to be (well Tina and I) we're going to be responsible for this child's physical, spiritual, mental, emotional and communal well-being and growth... just knowing that is incredibly crazy! (but crazy in a good way of course) I would be happy with either a boy or a girl... I'm just eager to know more about this child and for time to continue moving ( just want to be beyond the 1st tri-mester)

It's when I start to really think about how much energy, prayer, meditation, hope and love that I have for this baby, I realize that no child can ever know how much their parents love them without having children themselves. Just to think that so many children grow up with self hate, and so many teens are lost to suicide and if only these kids were loved, or shown the love that they deserve. When I think about how much I love, and am willing to invest in this little miracle that I haven't even met yet- well it astounds me.

I'm becoming impatient with still having a few weeks of school left... I just want to be finished for the summer. Knowing that I still have 3 weeks, but that these 3 weeks consist of a huge paper, a presentation, a couple other papers and an exam... I'm a little thrown off. lol
I'm thinking that this summer will be filled with ripe opportunity and I'm not even sure what that means but that it will be mixed with new experiences, exciting moments, and spiritual growth.

This summer I would like to put a couple projects together- I'd like to write a short book, nothing incredibly in depth but just to show that I can be disciplined enough to piece something together. I'd like to work on a variety of projects with the church, and also come up with a second form of income for Tina and I.

Well that's about it for now... just wanted to rant for a little while.

- Peace be with You.
Lance